3月15日，我们相遇，到现在已经9月18日了。半年的时间里我感到心里无比的满足，拥有你的满足，被爱的满足和爱你的满足。两年前，有人告诉我他的true love,当时不明白也体会不到其真正的含义；两年后，当快要25岁的时候，发觉那个最珍贵的人现在已经在身边了，我开始慢慢学着并懂得如何无怨无悔地付出。

 

虽然小的时候每天必须去少体校训练，但是其实我的体制并不是很好。经常会得一些感冒之类的小毛病，之前又得了肾结石。本来很罗曼蒂克的一顿晚餐，可是我突然间肚子痛得不行，于是去看医生，一桌的美味还没来得及享受就浪费了。你总是比我还着急，请假陪我去医院看病，一大早六点就去医院排队挂号，然后打的过来接我。挂盐水，打杜冷丁，验尿验血，一番折腾后已经凌晨一点了，可能是打了杜冷丁，过了一会就不痛了，而且头晕晕的，不知不觉就睡着了，睡梦中开始胡话连篇——“生病真幸福，还有人一直陪着”。我想可能是上帝的安排，在我们才相遇一个月滞后给了这样一个考验，让你照顾我，让我体会你的关心，并学习如去付出。

 

半年虽短，但是相互了解得已经很深。我们将要一起步上出国留学之路了，之前的一个月思想绕了一个很大的弯，该去美国还是澳洲。他是坚持去澳洲的，因为相对于美国的移民政策来讲那边更好留。其实我向来很向往美国，反复斟酌之后（期间又有一个小小的插曲，估计又是上帝安排来让我坚定与你在一起的信念的），还是打算与你一起去同一片国土留学。虽然我们都知道澳洲的教育是产业化，但是我们都会非常非常努力学习，然后找工作的。艰难困苦，现在也想像不来。我的性格注定我不想过安逸舒服，吃穿不愁的生活，至少现在不想。我希望能够在年轻的时候多经历一些，尝一下人生的酸甜苦辣，等到老了，跟你一起回忆往事，安享晚年。总觉得自己应该早一些出国，可是世事难料，各有利弊，至少现在出去我们是一起出去的，怀揣着梦想。

 

 

Sometimes we just need to find out a reason to explain the problem that we encounter. It takes maybe a few minutes or half an hour, even a whole day, but what you get after that is a deep relief. Definitely, changing a way of thinking or being rational and objective can help you get out of the thinking mud which is like a gost keep haunting your mind. Try to be intuitive and alert about the exact cause that arouse the problem.

Feel a little bit tired now after a day's work. Actually it shouldn't be, since the job is not a tough one O(∩_∩)O哈哈~ It might be a long lasting listening comprehension of Discovery, which I think is a great program that can fulfill my curiosity. I'm curious a person. Whether it is a good or bad thing? Who can tell? I once suffered from this distinct characteristic, but still can't get rid of this instinct given by nature and don't want to repress it. I deeply believe it is a gift from God. God gives us so many personal treasures that should be well cherished and made good use of, which also distinguishes one from another. Everyone is unique. My next step is planning for further study. It might sound ridiculous, because I mentioned it not less than three times during the past a few years. however, this time is serious. I just can't stop wondering how it would be like while studying and living in a foreign country with the totally different cultural background. To be more accurate, I want to find out who I am. This is a life-long lesson one has to learn, but I hope a different environment could help me to find it out, maybe just part of it, since I'm curious about myself. Perhaps there's another side I haven't discovered. Haha, who knows. Of course, so many things are laid ahead which need me to explore, not just things about people. Just be sure that persistence and hard working are always inside me. Sometimes, need more tolerance which certainly may release some burden and make one feels more happier about his/her life. Anger is the sixth deadly sin of human being.

 

I've been in Shanghai for more than half a year. The feelings about this city is so complicated. They can not be simply put into words to be expressed out. Shanghai is a material world, a place full of hopes, chaos, opportunities, etc. And most important it's full of people which i don't like, even hate. This city has efficient transportation facilities which is a requirement for its great expanse. I enjoy the splendid night sight of Global Financial Center, Oriental Pearl and the band view every day from the 24th floor where I live. It's a newly thriving city located in the east coast of Asia that dares to tell the world some day it will become the global financial centre. Till now we don't know whether it is a boast, time will tell, but the fact that everyone can see is Shanghai is definitely leading its way to prosperity and a brighter future. 

 

Shopping malls and business centers could be seen every where, almost at every metro stop there are some. To be honest, I don't think these have much things to do with me. I'm not a material girl who can't live without Cucci, Levis, Channel or other luxurious brands. Some occasional enjoyment of going to cafe or taking a walk on the bond with boyfriend also satisfies me. Beautiful, though expensive clothes attract all girls, including me. But a few is enough. For me, Jewelries are not symbols of status. Land Rover is also not a necessity. More and more private owned cars are polluting this city, making the living standards lower and lower, the air quality worse and worse and the temperature higher and higher in summer. I would prefer to ride a bike to places near is the environment is good and weather is pleasant. However, it's impossible now, for my sensitive skin can't be exposed to dirt in the air.

 

Another thing I want to say is the Shanghai people, sorry to say so, but I just mean some of them. The sense of superiority may sometimes nurture improvidence. No one denies the truth that it's a great place with convenient transportation, pleasant weather, and is rich of talented people. People all over the world are now flooding into this so called great place to look for opportunities or fulfill dreams, which make Shanghainese feel so proud about themselves. There are talented locals who are also hard working. But some, born in Shanghai, just enjoy their status of being a Shanghainese. They are not as competitive as people from other places who are trying to make a living in this city. They are just like a frog in a well and don't want to go out, but enjoy the little peace of sky above its head. They just forget how much efforts, tears, sweat even blood they left here for the development of the city. Nothing is perfect, so is the society. The Shanghai government also establishes some policies of regional protection. I'm not a cynic. What I want to do is just to choose an objective angle to say something about this city. To be continued...

 

最高的善像水那样。水善于帮助万物而不与万物相争。它停留在众人所不喜欢的地方。上善的人居住要像水那样安于卑下，存心要像水那样深沉，交友要像水那样相亲，言语要像水那样真诚，为政要像水那样有条有理，办事要像水那样无所不能，行为要像水那样待机而动。正因为他像水那样与万物无争，所以才没有烦恼。

 

Water can flow anywhere and nothing can stop it.

 

 

［一］ 

    朱塞佩 托尔纳托雷导演这部彩色影片《天堂电影院》时候 ，他才只有三十二岁。这部视听格外温情意大利新贵影片《天堂电影院》 ，一举收获了1989年奥斯卡最佳外语片奖。1989年戛纳电影节评委会特别大奖。1988年欧洲电影节评委会特别奖等等。 

    影片《天堂电影院》是朱塞佩 托尔纳托雷的“回家三部曲”之一 。 

    回家三部曲  ，多么动人的影片名字。 

    影片《天堂电影院》的全部重头故事情节 ，主要发生在意大利南部西西里一个小岛上的“天堂电影院”里里外外 。 再直观一点说，是发生在“天堂电影院”里里外外的亲情故事 ，故事主要环绕影片中两位一老一少男主人公艾弗特和沙维图迪维多 ，小名多多展开电影线索 。片子调式人文并且多情 ，乡稠而又昧浓 。 
我们跟随《天堂电影院》走了一程又一程 ，毕竟我们伴着银幕上天堂影院的日日月月，生活过来的呵 。是小岛上操劳了一辈子的老放映员艾弗特说的这一句话 ：每人都是一颗星星 。艾弗特讲这话时候 ，巳经为了他的电影 ，成为了一个双目失明的花甲老人 。 

［二］ 

    初看《天堂电影院》时候 ，本来我还想把影片最一开始的那个神父摇铃裁片的情节 ，当做这篇随感的题目《神父高举摇铃》 。可是稍后 ，接连看完两遍电影，我的想法改变了。那是因了影片《天堂电影院》呈现出来的那一种关怀与乡情 ，一种尽善和仁义 ，叫我改去了先前那个比较冷视又硬性的所谓观感标题 。 
在《天堂电影院》 ，每一个观众都是一颗闪烁的星星 。在《天堂电影院》 ，每一颗闪烁的星星 ，都是温暖的。 

    我们能够注意到 ， 影片《天堂电影院》的黑衣神父审片时候 ，或者天堂电影院上映的片目 ，几乎完全是早期意大利及欧洲本土的清一色经典黑白艺术电影 。比如象大导演尚 雷阿诺的《幻灭》 ，阿伦 雷乃的《去年在马里安巴》 ， 罗西里尼《罗马 不设防城市》 ， 维斯康蒂的《沉沦》 ，安东尼奥尼的《红色沙漠》，帕索里尼的《迷惘的一代》 ，费里尼的《甜密的生活》 ，伯格曼的《夏夜的微笑》 ，还有卓别林的《城市之光》等等 ，等等国际影坛大家的名片精作。 

    影片《天堂电影院》胶片上面的生活 ，其实也是一种人生 。艺术人生 。 

    影片《天堂电影院》里面 ，那些被黑衣神父摇铃裁剪下的电影“吻戏” ，其实也属于其艺术人生的片断 。小多多就是在这些电影的经典爱情断落当中成长着。也在电影中圣洁情感当中成长着。然而同慎我也注意到 ，正象影片《天堂电影院》里上映的那些经典名片中的悲伤恋曲那样，沙维图迪维多自巳的感情生活也并不十分妥贴 。直到白发染鬓年纪，沙维图迪维多仍然独身一人 。 但是我信，他自然会有他自己的爱 。一定的有 。 

［三］ 

    看过影片《天堂电影院》好久好久了 ，我还是总在以为 ，那些电影里事与人，历历在目，就象刚刚生发在我的身旁一样 。比如，小多多那个上了前线的爸爸 ，他长得象电影里的克拉克 盖博 。又比多多的妈妈，她勤俭持家 ，她美丽操守 ，多多的年轻妈妈 ，寡居一生，等候一生。 又比如 ，多多那个长发飘逸 ，忽隐忽现的女朋友 …… 

    这当然是一部亲情影片。同时这也是一部父爱电影 。 影片描绘少年多多的片幅占去了《天堂电影院》通片一半以上 。影片爱如水流，时刻浪拍。比如随手指出一个情节 ，七八岁的小多多比较滑头地坐在了老放映员自行车前座以后，老艾弗特歇了头顶的黄色礼帽也戴在多多脑袋上面了。一切都如我们身边现实生活那般自然 ，那般真正 。那般不虚情假意 。就象生活中的父与子 。 

    天堂电影院不幸失火之后，只一个小多逆着人流，迎着火海，冒死拖救出来老放映员艾弗特。这个火海捞人的长长画面 ，那火与影的电影画面，一直让人心仪动感着 。我心里反复呼唤着 ，老艾弗特和小多多 ，银幕上面真正的父与子 。非亲非故 ，多么美好的天堂电影院里面的人情 。 

天堂电影院 ，人情电影院   。 

［四］ 

    我们来到影片《天堂电影院》将近终场画面时候 ，看见老辈放映员艾弗特留给成年后多多的残片礼物 ——  过去年代剪辑并且存留下的“吻戏”镜头时候 ，我们跟随着双鬓巳霜的男主人公多多的视线 ，眺望银幕上面那些多多儿童年代被神父摇铃而删剪下的“吻戏”组接镜头时 ，沙维图迪维多正在潸然泪下 。我也跟着沙维图迪维多一样，静静落泪 。我心想 ，任何一个电影的爱好者只要触景生惰 ，看着看着《天堂电影院》这里的情景 ，大概都会为之流下衷情的泪水。 

    一个有幸生长在电影院和电影氛围中的孩子 ，是不多见的。也许正因为不多常见 ，所以才把它称之为天堂电影院 。 在我看第三遍看这部《天堂电影院》时候 ，我才认认真真品尝了盲人艾弗特讲给恋爱中的多多的那个神话 ——  一个忠诚士兵守候公主百天的神话故事 。 

    我蓦然地 ，好象从这神话中间发现了什么 ？ 心底感动着问自巳 ，为什么那个无畏生死的士兵坚等公主 ，等到九十九天时刻 ，却会有一个毅然艰立 ，夺路离开的大写场景 ？沙维图迪维多也问老艾弗特为什么 ？为什么忠诚的士兵会陡然离开公主 ？ 

    苍桑的艾弗特盲目着说道 ： 别问我了 ，我没有答案 。我在看这部电影《天堂电影院》的时候 ，心情大概也跟银幕上的老艾弗特一样 ，心里没有明确的答案 。我应该知道 ，那个艺术中的神话故事 ，也如电影里的故事一样 ，是高于生活的艺术作品 。我们一定会记住的 ，老放映员艾弗特的如是说 ： 在《天堂电影院》 ，我们每一个人都是一颗星星 。 

［五］ 

    影片《天堂电影院》是相当人性化的。影片中流露出的念旧情结是十分惊人的。比如放映室里，一直张贴着那幅醒目的电影广告《卡萨布兰卡》。甚至 ，沙维图迪维多母子走在西西里小岛街头 ，那战事期间的硝烟纷火的街头 ，也还悬贴着当时国际电影大片的招贴海报《乱世佳人》 。 

    影片接近尾声时刻 ，小岛面临市政改造建设 ，决定拆掉这一座古老的天堂电影院 。拆除那天，差不多是全城的男女老少影谜们 ，静静的守候在天堂电影院门口 ，轰的一声定向爆破之后 ，那些拌随了天堂电影院一辈子的年老观众 ，双眸里面全是晶莹泪花。而年轻无知的孩子们迎着炸塌的天堂电影院扑了上去 ，尽情嬉闹 。我们的生活就是这样 ，境遇决定心情 。时代投入心血 。天堂电影院曾经拥有过许多属于自巳的悲欢故事 。人们跟随电影一天天长大 。 

    天堂电影院是一个家 。电影观众的家 。一个有着太多梦幻故事的家园 。 

    正如影片里的人物所言 ：后来的年代 ，新生的电视代替了电影 。录相带还有DVD的飞跃 。 己经快节奏超越了电影院里的那些老套的陈旧故事 。 在《天堂电影院》 ，我们每一个人都是一颗闪烁的星星 。影片最终 ，是老艾弗特遗留给小多多的 ，是那些从前经典老电影上面剪裁下来“吻戏”蒙太奇 。这应当也是银幕上的爱 。这应当也是人间的爱 。爱是不能忘记的 。 

    天堂影院永远逝去 ， 银幕人生可成追忆 。 

    在天堂电影院 ，每人都是一颗星星 

一夜没有合眼

生命中的两大幸福不外乎从事自己喜欢的工作和能与自己喜欢的人一起终老一生。财富要积累，一定限度内可以增加你的幸福感，但是超过的那个限度就与幸福没有关系了。大多数的人还是在做着自己不喜欢的工作，和自己不爱的人住在一起。所以把心放宽点，实现了两个中的一个就应该很知足了，如果两个都实现了就非常非常满足了，但很少人能做到。